A New Start.

It's the eve of a New Year, year 2011 :) Unlike others, I don't really see a need to count down to another year, or to go out & party & stuffs like that. Instead, I spent this day SMS-ing my love one, from the last day of 2010, to the very first moment of 2011 :)

I think that every year can be our best, it's just whether we make an effort to let it be :) All problems, -School, friends, relationship, parents. All can be solved :)

This year's been rather smooth-sailing for me, with a little storm here & there :) I'm too lazy to upload photos. Just had my medicine & feel so drowsy! :(

Next year...

I want to spend more time with all my friends, & not just concentrate on studying & Softball.

I want to learn to mangae my time better.

I want to eat more good food!

I want to stay out of problems that are uncalled for. (Relationships, blah blah.) :)

I want to be more firm in what I say.

I want to learn to be angry at some people (???)

I want to help more needy people! (Oh yea, I still got $4 to donate, heh)

I want to be a better Jenna! :)

I've so many things to say, hahaha! But nothing gets typed out here, pft. Am looking forward to the 1st day of school & annual camp as well. Call me crazy uh, I know I know...

No pictures as my brain doesn't seem to actually work now :(

You don't know how much you actually hurt me before with your feelings and words. Am I a servant to you? If yes, then you're not fit to be my master either. Thanks.

2011's gona be great I believe! :D

Stop Treating Me Like That

Kor Kor's 18th Birthday @ Tony Roma's!

I don't know why people are like that. Why can't people just cherish me & not take me for granted? You people take too much, and never give. Do you find satisfaction in doing that? You all take the best & leave me to the rest. Just what is wrong. Just what am I to you all?

I'm lucky to have some people that actually care, really. You all don't know how I cherish them. And I really thank God for them. Because I got cherished just like how I cherish them :)

People who listen, people who care, people who love me. People who eat with me, people who send me home. You're that person :)

Everything's Perfect.

Sorry for not blogging really often nowadays.

Penang trip was pretty alright, won't elaborate much. Oh, did I mention I walked around 50 minutes to get to a place there, that sells top-grade tao sa piang! It's really nice! I ate like box (32pieces) already, uh huh :)

26th Decmember!

Went out with favourite today! Acted like tourists around Singapore, hehehe! Luckily found our way to the Merlion & took a lot of photos (with the help of others), which turned out great, & shots (taken by me), which were a total failure :(

Walked a really long way to the Helix Bridge & we went inside Marina Bay Sands Resort! It's really a huge place! With only a tiny weeny small Christmas tree, hahaha!

Talked, shared, gossiped, discussed, laughed, racked our brains, walked, joked :)

& now, I know something, hahaha!

After that, went to meet Bra The, Nicky, Irwin, Ryan, Randall, Shu Min, Hui Lin & Shi Ying @ Cineleisure for"Guliver's Travel"! A really nice comedy that kept me laughng throughout! Went for dinner and we (the girls) went to Bedok Point! Food paradise, whoopies!

All in all, enjoyed myself this Boxing Day!

I want to bake cookies! Who has a oven to spare me :(

Thanks for today :)

Yes, I'm That Afraid,

I seem to have lost my appetite. Yeah, a shocking thing to be heard from me, but really. I stared at the noodles just now, and I didn't feel like eating at all, :( It started like 3 days ago. Is it true that you eat better without any worries? I feel so scared all of a sudden. I can't explain my current feeling into words. When you said it was the last, my heart felt uneasy, paranoid. Oh, how I hate this feeling :(

Christmas is soon here! I'm still thinking of what to get for them if the Christmas date is still on, mm hmm. Food? Cards? Hugs? I don't really know :) Might not have the time to do it either, considering the fact that my 5 CHINESE compositions are still left untouched, slaughter me N.O.W.

It's just me & you -happily ever after. It is beautiful :) My past tense will never be used on you :)

This Is All It Takes.

Photos taken @ East Coast BBQ :) It was a "junior promote to senior day", as well as the ROD for Eileen! :) We really had to thank God for the fine weather yesterday! Am really glad that everyone enjoyed themselves and this'll mark a stone less off my chest! Phew ~

So, we had the norm, BBQ, waterbombs & bonding time :) And lots and lots and lots of pictures of course! Like 541 of them, haha! :) All in all, I had fun, though my sprained ankle really restricted quite a lot of my movement :(

Hmm, I guess that's it. Many funny incidents happen, like stupid Shermaine spammed my camera with her face & kept on acknowledging me as her twin sister, when I'm not even half as alike as her! Jovial Jona peeled prawn shells for the team, really thoughtful of her! :) Smiley Shu Min is really good at poking the chickee wings! Cuddly Chi Yean only knows how to keep asking for food & complain that it's raw! Lovely Lee Gin was my "shadow" practically for the whole day & colourful Cheryl said we looked cute together! :) Note the alliteration!

Overall, I had fun, and the girls too, that's all that matters ultimately :)

Would be away @ Penang from the 20th-23rd December. Hotel stay from the 24th-25th December & outing with favourite/favourites on the 26th. Sec 1 orientation on the 28th. Annual meeting on the 29th & Sakae Meal with Charlians after that! I love my timetable! :)

I know I haven't been replying my tags for a pretty long time. I shall do it here.

Boh - Yeah man, it's been sucha long time since we've last met up :( I've no more trainings already! But looking at how tight our sheldure are, hmm, meet ups are gona be quite difficult! And yeah man, I need food! Sorry, couldn't make it on Saturday!

Yuwen - We'll try to arrange it soon ba, haha! & I saw your blog post regarding the same issues, I can totally relate myself to that too man! Like Boh said, telepathy eh! :)

Qianhui - The PRESIDENT of the United States, hahaha! Winnnnnk!

Anon to Jenna - I think I'm closer to them compared to my own batch, hahaha :)

Juehui - Must try harder! Cannot hate :D

Am I supposed to live through that 4 days? Us to strangers. I asked you before. Noise to silence. I told you before. We'll just learn to live with it.

I Came To Win.

Eating makes me hairpee, you have a problem with that? :) Would be meeting team mates to settle some stuffs later in the late morning! :) Thanks girls for helping me out, I love you all :) After that, off to meet my 2 favourite people plus Wayne for lunch!

Oh, to clarify something. I'm really fine now, thank you :) I know that you all are concerned & kept asking me to share my burdens with you all. But sorry, if I say it's personal, please leave it at that. I really appreciate you all a lot, but some stuffs are better left unsaid :) You know you know...

I'm blogging now while doing my English composition. Or trying to come up with something at least! Ideal home. I just want it to stay like mine now, hahaha! But of course I can't write that, she'll fail my content, hehe :) K, I want a food center inside my home, yummy or what? :)

I really can't recall the last time I went out with my Secondary School friends for lunch or anything like that. All of us are bizee with trainings, Softball, Volleyball, Soccer, tsk tsk :(

Last training for the year tomorrow! Good or bad? Oh wellz... :)

It's been quite a while you had this nonsensical Jenna kinda post eh :)

Tooootles!

We love & we dislike. We never hate :)

This Was Never Easy.

To play a sport well, you must feel for it.

Why is it that sometimes, the sport you love, the sport you play, can be the sport that makes you cry instead? I think the strongest people in this world, are not those that've been through a bad break up. I think the strongest people are the ones that gets insulted everytime, the ones that have been looked down upon, but eventually the ones that prove everybody wrong.

I always told myself. "We get what we work for." But after much thinking, I came to a conclusion. Sometimes, people don't recognise your effort. People don't see your sweat. People don't see those tears.

I got so much things to say actually. But I'm not sure if anyone feels like I do, so forget it. But it's weighing on my mind so heavily that I can't think of anything else but this. Don't ask me what happened. I'm sorry. People just have to understand that I don't feel like talking everytime.

These things. Please stop assailing my mind. I can't play my game well like that. Stop it.

Yes, stop it. Stop talking to me about Softball for now. I don't know what am I really fighting for.

You Brighten My Day.

Promises are like toys, never meant to be broken.

It's the end of a week - A hetic week in fact! With trainings sucking up all my energy, with suppressing fustrations with me & with laugh & joy of course :)

To sum it all up, I had a rather fruitful week, did you? :)

I don't think the world is unfair. We get what we worked for. I've learnt.

Training today was overly depressing :( But my juniors always never fail to make my day! I just love teasing them, hehehe! Sadistic! But it makes me hairpee what, who cares? Hehehe! I know Ms Aunty is prolly reading this now, stalker :)

I am not a Malay nor an Indian. Hahaha! I always get the "Eh Jenna, you half Malay ah?" or stuffs like "You lived in India before?" I still remembered what Yan Ting asked me during the Bintan trip, hillarious! But I better shush before you evil people suan me again! But even Mama seconds what they think, what more could I say? :(

It's okay to break down a little here & there. You always see clearly afterwards.

School's starting in 2 weeks time! I can't wait! Okay, maybe not so for the academic part, but definately for the fun & enjoyable part! I'll be in Upper Secondary! I really hope I won't stand up during assembly when they say "Lower sec, please stand." Imagine the humilation if I did. I'll just bury a hole like a buffalo, -winks-. Hehehe :)

I think the world is beautiful :) Don't believe people when they say that it isn't. They just haven't seen the best of people, the best of things :)

New Secondary 1s students are coming for Softball try-out on the 27th December! I'm so over excited about it! I better get a grip on myself before I start my daily rountine of insulting all my team meates 1 by 1, hehehe! I don't want to scare the poor innocent babies of the team! Hahaha! Ogay, whatever. I'll just be me :) They can laugh, just don't cry! Ha!

People lie to themselves. Not because they're avoiding the truth, it's because sometimes, it hurts less.

Who do you think are the saddest people on Earth? Liars? Betrayers? Attention seekers? My answer will be, "None of those." I think the saddest kind of people on Earth are those that don't love. There's plenty of reasons why they don't. Maybe they're too hurt to open up their hearts again. Or maybe they haven't found the right person yet? But I say, these are all excuses. Not everyone will hurt us. Even if they did, you've to blame yourself too, for giving too much, to recieve nothing in the end. But love is selfless, it doesn't calculate, it doesn't mind, it corrects one, it never destroys. Love is supposed to be beautiful. Believe in this belief :)

Open your eyes to light.

It's 12.15am now, & I'm still up chatting with my close ones! I feel so blessed, hahaha! Who doesn't like late hour chats, hmmm :) K, I shouldn't be so hairpee actually. I've 5 Chinese compositions on my hand to complete, o.h m.y m.a.m.a :( I just realised it yesterday when Lame Hong asked me if I've completed them. And no, I HAVE NOT! I can die writing 1, 5? You must have had a screw loose :(

We shouldn't smile if we're not genuinely happy. It's just wrong.

Ogay, I'm done with my post! I'm gona share secrets with someone now, oh pork, hahaha! Pictures are taken @ Bangkok, Thailand during vacation! Next post would be a food picture post! Stay tune!

Am I Doing Too Much?

Maybe we're all trying too hard to beat each other in that certain position, to be the best in the team, to be the one that hits the furthest, to be the one that pitches the fastest. We're trying so hard, that sometimes, we forgot that we're a team. Because when you hit over the fence, no one will clap the loudest but your team mates. When you pitch a strike out, no one will smile like your team mates. We shouldn't be an individual. We need each other. So don't push any of your team mates away. One day, if you lose, you'll realise that the table can be turned around if you worked with your team mates.

The 3 People.

Ogay, this post should be posted like a hundred years ago or something, but I kept delaying it, ogay :)

Went out to makan makan with 2 of my favourite people in the world, on __th November, keke :)

@ Bedok Central! Who said that only expensive food can be nice? :D Crazy Boh had a sudden craving for hawker food, & a date was made to eat them :) Each of us were to bring a budgeted $10 & surprisingly, it was more than enough! -Pats on backs-

So...we ate...

HOKKIEN MEE! FRIED CARROT CAKE!FRIED KUAY TIAO! (I've no idea on the spelling :P)FISHBALL SOUP!FRIED WANTON! (It feels weird eating Wayne Tan, hahaha!)SUGAR CANE JUICE!

& if you're going, "I bet they can't finish these food!", then you're proven wrong!

Do we get any prize for this? :)

& then, Boh had a craving for prata! Yes, it was her craving again! :) So, we went over to Simei's Ah Mei Cafe for Prata! Hehehe, awesome! :D

No, our spree didn't end there! We went up Eastpoint 2nd floor for yogurt! It's nice, newly opened store! :) It's called Canada something something, oh whatever. Who cares about the name anyway!OERO YOGURT!PEACH & STRAWBERRY YOGURT!

Ogay, it's OUR time now :D

Happy belated Halloween! Hehehehe :)

Signature faces, pork! :D

Take that Bryan.K for calling me short! HA! :DHappy kids are cool ones :D

Oh, did I mention that we started going crazy doing Bollywood epic dance? Hmmm.

Hahaha! If being crazy was a crime, I think we would've have been sentenced to death :)

Good luck to you two for your Netball championship next year! :)

& good luck to me for the top 15.

Thanks for always being there for me & keeping to your promise to be by my side, always :) Sorry that I've ranted at you yesterday because I was feeling overly upset with myself. I promise you I'll work hard, play my game well & believe in myself. -Pinky pinky- :)

Sorry For All.

I've never liked rejections. I've never liked commitment. Maybe later, but not now. I don't know. I feel so lousy & bad & guilty & any other words you could think of. This is not Jenna, I don't like this very day. Confessions don't always end up well. I'm sorry for everything. Really, everything. I know you read this, tell me I'm forgiven.

Joshua, you better shush about this, since YOU READ THROUGH MY MESSAGES!!!

I need a food remedy now, desperately. Anyone?

Absence

I'm back from Bangkok! :)

I miss hearing from you. 5 days without it, gosh.

Am so angry now, I need to pop a chill pill.

What If Today Was Your Last Day.

What if today was your last day, what would you do?

Would you sit at a corner & cry? Rejoice because you've had enough of the world? Laugh because that's the only remedy? Just what exactly would you guys do?

Whatever you do, just make sure that there's no room for regret. Life is too short to regret, but never to short to learn from your mistakes.

People will disappoint you. You will disappoint others. You disappoint yourself even. But do you think the hurt will go away if you hate that person? How will we ever learn to love others if we don't love ourselves? You'll just find that the time & effort needed to love is just redundant.

No one said that you're guranteed to recieve something when you love. No one said that there'll be returns by the end of the day. No one said that everyone would appreciate. But when you love, no one can feel the warmth of it, but yourselves :)

It's great to feel loved. But in order to fully understand it, you've to give it to someone too. So what if he/she doesn't appreciate? So what? You loved, and you will be in return :)

Love is like a counter-attack game. You recieve as much as you give, or sometimes even more :)

It's theory proven my dears :)

Learn to love, only then will you learn to serve :)

Thank you to whoever that love/loved me. I love you all & I always will :)

Thank you God.

There's No Tomorrow.

Sometimes, no matter how hard you've tried, it's just not enough.

Hello, I'm back to post here :) Was away @ Bintan from the 19th to the 22th, had an awesome, fabulous, & fantastic time there!

I was really looking forward to this camp as soon as I saw my grouping - All the lovely ones! & it turned out that I wasn't being excited for nothing! No one could compare to the Charlians - us :)

We played together, ate together, slept together, basically, did everything together :) I could sincerely say that this was my best school camp ever!

We visited an orphanage & a local school. Looking at the few amenities they have there, I thought of what we have here, that have always been taken for granted. The little things that we do not even give a second thought to. If you think that water, electricity & food is easy to get, then think again. Because for the people there, these are the things that they hope to have, but they don't.

We live too a comfortable life, it's time we not be so ignorant anymore. It's time.

Qianhui was my best camp buddy! We sat together on the bus, leaned on each other's shoulders to sleep, laughed hysterically at everything, & "insulted" group mates like no tomorrow, hehe :) Girl, thank you for giving me such an enjoyable time over at Bintan, I love you! :)

All in all, I miss being in Bintan, I miss The Charlians & the fun we had together :(

It's funny how playing a sport you love so much could make you cry.

I know how the softballers feel. I know you all are thinking "We went all out, we pushed ourselves, but what did we get?" Sometimes, I ask myself that too. I want the answer, can anyone tell me?

Coach, I miss you patting our head as an encouragement whenever we miss a ball. Because, we don't get that now.

Had friendly matches @ Fajar yesterday. I'm just gona sit & reflect.

There's still room for improvement. I hate the emo-ish feeling I feel everytime after Softball, oh wellz. There's still happy stuffs! It's been so long since we've all been on the field playing as a team together - The Sec 2s :) It feels great, everyone trusts each other to catch the ball/cover bases etc etc :) Awesome! :)

From left to right, Stephen's, Jenna's, Joshua's. Hehe, I know mine's pathetic :(

The end :)