When It Goes Extreme

You guys don't understand. You have to be my very very very close friend, before I allow myself to open up to you. I don't just go up to any random people & start opening up to them. Reason being, I don't want to seem like a burden to them. If you're my close friend, then you wouldn't have this thinking. But picture this. If someone not close to you at all starts blabbering on about their unhappy stuffs or whatever, your first natural reaction would be "What has your problem got to do with me?" No matter how much you try to deny it, you would still admit, that you ever had this thought before. Because, honestly, I do. I've just realised today, that I'm the extreme case. I was kinda plagued by something rather worrying today & my mood sunk immediately. Being a girl that's very dependent on others, my first reaction was "Rant to him". However, our mood was one of exhilaration this afternoon. & that was enough to change my mind. I put on a semblance of happiness & we continued texting. But somehow, the "lie" was exposed & I ranted to him anyway. I was wondering how he could've figured it out, but then again, it all boils down to your level of closeness with that person. If I were to text in the same exact manner to just my normal friends, they would probably think I was on drugs or something. But sadly, no.

So I guess, no matter how out casted you are, how lonely you are, or how you love being alone so much, have a close friend. In the long run, you would realised exactly how important is this special one to you. Cause I've personally experienced it. Being all alone, lost in all that's happening, & yet having no one to assure you they care. What could be worst than that?

I'm known as a very "happy-go-lucky" girl, one that sees happiness as something that she rightfully deserve. But then again, no matter how happy/optimistic a person is, he/she would have a down-turn in their lives. That's inevitable. Through these rough patches, one can really see the light as to who they can/should trust & who they should just shut up to.

Do take time to ponder over my words. Though I'm not some professor or anything who real big logic, I think y explanation is rational enough to get you start thinking.

I end off with a smile.

:)