Paranoid

Pictures taken during ROD last Friday, :)

It was rather enjoyable & entertaining, HAHA. Softballers in dresses & volleyballers in suits. What could be more exciting, HAHA!

More pictures would be uploaded soon kk, wait for it!

YOG's closing ceremony with Mama was nice & both of us were getting high for nuts. Screamed whenever I saw Ukaraine atheletes, & I swear, people were on the verge of killing me, :)

School's pretty okay, results likewise.

English - 80 (A1)

Chinese - 54 (C6)

Maths - 79 (A1)

Science - 80 (A1)

Geography - 77 (A1)

History - 90 (A1)

Literature - 90 (A1)

DNT - 71 (A2)

Art - 52 (C6)

I know my Art and Chinese's pathetic! Hey come on, I'm Jenna :)

So just you guys know, I'm fine now & just forget about my previous post, hehe! Maybe I'll write a letter personally to my dearest(s) one day huh, :) Wait for it yet again! HAHA!

Mooncake festival's coming & I wana eat mooncakes under the full moon! Can someone kindly tell me when is it pretty please? (English dates please :D) I want to go on a mooncake spree soon yeah! So fun :)

National rally speech now. I have to admit it. The speech's impressive man! Really, it does make a lot of sense and President Lee Hsien Loong is (Y). I'm so proud of he being a Singapore leader. Very nice speech, :)

Softball's gona stop for the End-Of-Year exams. WHY :( I think I'll continue to train when I have extra free time, hehe! Provided Mama gives the green light, which I think I'll be able to bribe her to :D

Alright, enough about my nonsensical stuffs! I need to get some motivation to study & who wants to go on a study date with me? All are welcomed, HAHA!

It's like I got so many activities coming up that my head's whirling round & round & round. Baka!

I love baking! Yayy-eeee-wee!

See you all soon!

You got issues. :)

When You Forgot

Sorry that I've not been blogging so often anymore.

I might stop blogging. I just thought about it the other day & felt that it was prolly better if I just pen my thoughts down in my notebook instead of expressing it here. So oh wellz.

I don't know. Everyone around me is feeling down these few days. What could I say? What could I do? Absolutely nothing. Those "I'm fine". Those "It's okay". Those "I'm alright". Those lies. No matter how hard you try, if people don't feel comfortable opening up to you, there's no way you could ever make them talk. There's no way you could ever make them feel better. There's no way you could stop their tears. If you're not fated to put a smile on someone's face, then so be it. That's life.

There are times, when you just want to cry out loud, when you want to hug someone so tightly, when you want to just close your eyes & forget everything. You just want everything to be put to a halt. You want the world to stop spinning for a moment, long enough for us to get back on our feet. All that we wish for - Tell me, what actually comes true? None. Then again, that's life.

& just when you thought that everything's over, that life has nothing worth us living for, suddenly comes this person. Be it your boyfriend/girlfriend/relative or even your best friend. This person seems like a gift from God. It's a present that we can't afford to lose.

This someone would never fail to put a smile on your face. This someone will love you so much that somehow, you feel that you're in your dreams. But then in this case, reality is so much more beautiful isn't it? Something would just spark within you & this realisation hit you, "Why had I feel so miserable before? Why had I feel so inconsolable before? There's no reason for sorrow now, I found strength. Strength in him/her." You skip around, you sing, you dance, you can practically be yourself.

You know they say, "One's best friend is of a different sex." I agree. Oh yes, I do. & I say, that's life.

You thought that everything's perfect. & then, you were proven wrong. The person that you care so much for, the person that gave you motivation, the same person that makes your morning and helps you sleep at night, is gone. Gone just like the zephyr that caressed our faces. Gone as fast as how tears flow. You feel the anger burning inside you. Later, you understand. It's not anger, it's hurt. Your heart beats louder & louder, and before you know it, a flood of tears come pouring down your face. Reality does not stop to think if you like it or not. You're left in the dark;all by yourself. People come & go. Best friends turn to strangers. What could I say? That's life.

Best friends. Are we still? Can we continue laughing till our sides ache again? Can we still tease each other like there was no tomorrow? Will your eyes still light up whenever we meet? Somehow, I've no more faith left.

Remember. I'm trained to put a facade. I have a semblance of almost every emotions. I was me.

& yes, I'm alright, :)

Life Goes On

Faith 2-2'10!

Right, I was supposed to blog yesterday but I got carried away doing some other stuffs, hehe! Oh, talking about stuffs! I still have an art assignment to complete, :( Onerous task!

So anyway, if you're wondering why am I blogging when I'm supposed to be studying, COMMON TESTS' OVAAA! Okie, it's not really a big deal, :)

Tests were pretty alright, but I think I would have done better if given more time to check through. Time was pretty tight especially for the Humanities papers. But I shouldn't start complaining as results are still not out yet (Except for Maths & HMT)

Maths wasn't expected. I expected worse, HAHA. Quite satisfied with my results, 79/100 :)

To people that didn't well,

Don't brood over it anymore! As the saying goes, "Don't cry over spilled milk!" Instead, learn from your mistakes & prove yourself during the Final Year Exams, :) God bless you & study hard!

HMT, I prefer not to talk about it. Chinese just ain't my thing, :(

HAHA, I received texts from various people asking me to cheer up & said that being emo is never my thing, :)

AWWWW, SWEET :D

So anyway, I was at Eastpoint Mall some days back & was bird watching people. Came across many interesting people, :)

I saw a mother holding the hands of her down syndrome child. I saw her smile, I saw how blessed the child looked. I saw what people call "Motherly love". I inevitably smiled. Something sparked within me. I can't explain this, really.

I saw mothers scolding their children for running around the mall, for screaming, for shouting & for being disruptive. Suddenly, I was hit by the realization that being a mother is not easy. I came to realize the hardship my mother went through trying to raise my brother & I up. Being a mother is not a role that anyone could take out. In my context, being a mother is God's calling & it's a hard role. It's ever easy. & that's why, I'm beginning to appreciate my parents more & more each day.

See? Just wandering around the mall could teach me life's greatest lessons. You should try it one day, :)

I know I'm a little crazy, but sometimes, I do allow crazy thoughts to go through my mind.

Like how I wonder how different would my life be if I was not a normal kid? Would everyone still love me yet the same?

Life Like This

I'm backkkkk! Wow, so many things happened these past few days, that I've absolutely no idea where to begin from!

Okie, I'm gona start by thanking these people.

Kia Yee, Ren Jue, Yap Chuan, Shawn.T, Elward, Zameer, Cheryl.C, Cindy, Chi Yean, Aqilah, Natladda.

For the comforts, care & concern :) It's times like this that I truly learn how to appreciate :) Thank you once again!

Faith 2-2

For being the best class one could ever wish for :)

Hope 2-1

For making my day early in the morning with your nonsense & for making my job so lovable :)

& lastly, to God be the glory!

FRIDAY, 6TH AUGUST!

It's national day celebration @ GMSS! A really enjoyable day for me! I laughed, I screamed, I shouted & most importantly, I loved it!

Faith 2-2, being our usual typical "last minute" self, began hasty preparations for the class mascots & dress. I must admit! Rascinah & Dennon looked awwwwwwwly cutie pie :)

Thanks Ren Jue & Shawn.T for the CDs!

& you know what! I think Faith 2-2's gona get sooooo featured in the annual school magazine! Muahaha, yes, we were just this outstanding :) We won the award for the best mascot & dress for the whole Sec 2 cohort!

&&&! THE MOST SUPPORTIVE CLASS AWARD THROUGHOUT THE WHOLE SCHOOL!

Right, I should just stop bragging, :)

I should just be so happy everyday, :)

I'll smile till my jaws hurt, MUAHAHA :D

SATURDAY, 7TH AUGUST.

Went for brunch with Cuzzies in the morning @ "SHURGS" I don't know where :)

Took picturessss of foodie, but lappy died on me. So, yeah :(

Walked around Bugis & I went off soon after for the YOG thing!

Excited huh :)

The YOG was so awesome -WAVES HAND-

Had a very fun time getting hyper/high/noisy/disruptive with Sabita Gurung, Joel Loh, Faith Ng, Lee Qianhui & Poh Chi Yean, Choo Shu Min, Tan Hui Lin. It was just soooo (Y) at that corner :)

Made new found friends too, MUAHAH!

I can declare that GMSS was prolly the most enthu school there.

& you know what! The camera didn't even shoot us!

We're just too good for them :)

It was definately a very good show, & the people mentioned above ^^ were getting crazy saying, "Look! Our family's money just flew again" whenever they see fireworks. SERIOUSLY :D

This is one of the reasons why I just enjoy living my life!!! Who cares about those sad times, who cares about the heartbreaks, who cares about the tears. I'll throw them all awaaaaayyyy ~ !

MONDAY, 9TH AUGUST.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!

For the past 45 years...

You've stood strong.

You've been a home that I'll always cherish!

You've kept all of us safe.

You've controlled our safety & security just so well :)

YOU MADE ME FAT WITH LATE NIGHT SUPPERS WITH CHICKEN RICE, WANTON MEE, CHAR SIEW FAN & ALL!

But still, I love you!

:D

& EVERYTHING GOOD HAPPENES, BECAUSE FATHER GOD HAD PLANNED IT ALL :)

Seeya all after I've conquered common test, :)