When You Forgot

Sorry that I've not been blogging so often anymore.

I might stop blogging. I just thought about it the other day & felt that it was prolly better if I just pen my thoughts down in my notebook instead of expressing it here. So oh wellz.

I don't know. Everyone around me is feeling down these few days. What could I say? What could I do? Absolutely nothing. Those "I'm fine". Those "It's okay". Those "I'm alright". Those lies. No matter how hard you try, if people don't feel comfortable opening up to you, there's no way you could ever make them talk. There's no way you could ever make them feel better. There's no way you could stop their tears. If you're not fated to put a smile on someone's face, then so be it. That's life.

There are times, when you just want to cry out loud, when you want to hug someone so tightly, when you want to just close your eyes & forget everything. You just want everything to be put to a halt. You want the world to stop spinning for a moment, long enough for us to get back on our feet. All that we wish for - Tell me, what actually comes true? None. Then again, that's life.

& just when you thought that everything's over, that life has nothing worth us living for, suddenly comes this person. Be it your boyfriend/girlfriend/relative or even your best friend. This person seems like a gift from God. It's a present that we can't afford to lose.

This someone would never fail to put a smile on your face. This someone will love you so much that somehow, you feel that you're in your dreams. But then in this case, reality is so much more beautiful isn't it? Something would just spark within you & this realisation hit you, "Why had I feel so miserable before? Why had I feel so inconsolable before? There's no reason for sorrow now, I found strength. Strength in him/her." You skip around, you sing, you dance, you can practically be yourself.

You know they say, "One's best friend is of a different sex." I agree. Oh yes, I do. & I say, that's life.

You thought that everything's perfect. & then, you were proven wrong. The person that you care so much for, the person that gave you motivation, the same person that makes your morning and helps you sleep at night, is gone. Gone just like the zephyr that caressed our faces. Gone as fast as how tears flow. You feel the anger burning inside you. Later, you understand. It's not anger, it's hurt. Your heart beats louder & louder, and before you know it, a flood of tears come pouring down your face. Reality does not stop to think if you like it or not. You're left in the dark;all by yourself. People come & go. Best friends turn to strangers. What could I say? That's life.

Best friends. Are we still? Can we continue laughing till our sides ache again? Can we still tease each other like there was no tomorrow? Will your eyes still light up whenever we meet? Somehow, I've no more faith left.

Remember. I'm trained to put a facade. I have a semblance of almost every emotions. I was me.

& yes, I'm alright, :)