Here It Goes Again

People think they know me. People think that they understand me. People think that I'm a girl that doesn't seem to be plagued by any sadness or sorrow. People think that I face life happily & optimistically everyday. But you know, the fact is they don't understand nor will they ever.

I've said before, "I cherish the belief that when life, lived to inspire happiness in others, is meaningful." But, humans are selfish people even though they try to deny so hard that they ain't. The truth is everyone of us is. When we see others beating us to things, those "Well-done" might actually mean "I wish I was better than you." You know what I mean? God created us in this way, so that we are, you could say, perfectly imperfect. Nah, there's nothing wrong with that. There's nothing wrong with wanting to be better, really.

Inferiority. I experience that everyday. I'm not a guy's dream type of girl. I don't get top grades & I'm not the teacher's pet. I'm far from those stunning girls that people can't take their eyes off. I'm not loaded with money & neither am I popular. I'm not artistic nor am I cultured. I'm nowhere near gentle. Not even close to that. I'm not the best sports player. You see? I'm just Jenna, I'm just me :)

To admit, I long to be the type of girl that I've mentioned above. I would love to be loved. Then again, who doesn't want to be perfect? But as time passes & thinking gets more matured, I realised that that's not real happiness. Sometimes, you try so hard to be someone that you actually lose the real you. Let me emphasize. There's NOTHING wrong with being YOU. There's nothing wrong with being fat. There's nothing wrong with being a glutton. There's nothing wrong with cuddling your soft toys to sleep every night. There's nothing wrong with going to the mall with your hair tousled, with your shirts untucked & with skirts that could practically be used to sweep the floor. Hey, that's you :) & I say, that's life :)

Yes, there'll be girls better than you, obviously. There would be girls leaving you for them, for the fame, the popularity. There would be boys leaving you for them, for the "Woah, she's your girl? She's hot." But then, that's the time when reality would smack itself right into your face. 2 words. "I'm me." Really, people must learn to accept. Don't ever try to change yourself because of all these. Of course, change yourself for the better :)

Being you, being happy, hey, that's the real beauty :) You get what I'm saying? Why be so common when you could just stand out? Everyone's special. Yes, that includes the ugliest girl on Earth. & that would make people like me, love you more :) Have the courage. Because life shrinks or expand in proportion to one's courage :) Do not live for others, because no one can bring you peace but you yourself :)

If no one else loves you, remember that I would & I do. Because sometimes, I might be that girl crying in a corner for some love, some attention. This is something nobody knows.

Jenna, you gave so much advice. Please, follow them. Because you're beautiful. Oh yes, I am.