Paranoid

Sorry to the reader that requested for that blog post. I was too caught up doing/finishing some of my stuffs that I totally neglected this blog of mine, apologies? :)

Are you a + or - person?

Well, since I put + first, I must say that I'm a rather positive person. I'm the type of person that tend to see a cup as half filled rather than half empty. I panic in tough situations, but I don't give in & complain, because I believe that by whining & lamenting, things aren't going to be better. So instead, I count on myself, I seek help from others, & hold on to the faith that things would look better eventually.

I have this belief that one would be happier and be able to live life to the fullest if he/she learnt to take life easy & optimistically. What's the point of crying over something that you could never have? On the other hand, why not take that time to strive & work hard towards the thing that you want;the thing that you seek for, so that one day, it'll be yours. Time is precious. Our life would definitely not be well-lived if all that we'll capable of is cursing at people who we think it's the cause of our downfall;Scolding parents for giving birth to us;Swearing to God, & asking him why were we ever created.

Isn't that pointless? But you may argue with me, saying that life's never smooth-sailing, & sometimes, I agree. It's hard to always look on the brighter side of things. & I sometimes, fail myself.

I have expectations. High ones in fact. & at times, when I fail to meet them, it's as though the world came crashing down at my feet. It's like all my efforts were drained down the drain, into the big sea, where I know, are wasted. & just so you know, these are times when my blanket never fails to get damped, when I wake up the next morning with swollen eyes, when I feel that life's a dread. But! I get over these.

I realised that some expectations were meant to get met, & some just aren't meant to be. I can't expect the same of everyone. I must accept the fact that everyone's different, in their very ways. I can't expect them to enjoy talking to me as much as I do. I can't expect them to love their CCA as much as I do. I can't expect teachers to mark my test papers as leniently as I wish they would. I can't expect people to care so much for me, just because I do. I can't expect everyone to have the same style of loving as I have. If everyone was the same, where's the interesting part of life? So, for this, I must confess. Sorry, I'm not a 24/7 smiling girl. But I've learnt a few lessons in the midst of these. However, that's side-tracking already, haha.

Being overly optimistic isn't very ideal actually. Sometimes, we must have a little tinge on\f sadness & misery in our lives, in order to make us understand the meaning of hardship, perseverance, and the importance of cherishing all those around us :)

But all in all, I must say, that I'm more of the positive person, than a negative one.

& to all of you, I hope you are too. Because remember, life is unpredictable, we don't have any second-chances, so just smile, laugh, love.