Do You Realize

Do you realize that sometimes what you say aren't making things better for me?

People are congratulating me, people are wishing me all the best. But sometimes, they just fail to realize that this is not the way that I want things to become. I'm totally stressed out over my class next year. Yes, I know that I brought this all upon myself. I wanted 8 subjects. Yes, I wanted that badly. But when I think of the competition, I get freaked out.

Come on, even a dumb can tell that in that class, there's so many people that are way smarter than me. My results may be comforting to some, but it's totally peanut compared to all my to-be classmates. Gosh :(

Maybe I have to work harder. It's time to stop fooling around. It's time to stop chilling out after school for no occasion. Softball or studies? Which comes first?

Try to balance both? I'm only human, I know I can't.

But I'll try. It just sucks when both are just as important.

Thank you to whoever that comforted me. You know I love you all

I really appreciate all around me, those that never fail to ring me up whenever I need a listening ear. Thank you, you don't know how you actually made my day so beautiful.

Oh, there we go on our cold war again. The wheels on the bus indeed go round and round.